Komaeda Nagito (![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
eyeswideopen) wrote2015-10-14 07:21 pm
eyeswideopen) wrote2015-10-14 07:21 pm
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Messenger Box
If you need to get a hold of Komaeda, here's where you do it.
Messenger birds, action, what have you.
[...That's a lot to take in, and he's not really sure what to do to help the situation, either.
But there's more to be said, so he stops and listens. ...Takes another bite out of his cookie, just because.]
What did he do?
But there's more to be said, so he stops and listens. ...Takes another bite out of his cookie, just because.]
What did he do?
He hugged me. [His voice is some how a little quieter. Nagito still can't believe it happened. He wraps his arms about himself. The warmth is still there if he thinks about it. He stares off into the distance the shadows broken by light that rises up from him in threads of pale gold.]
He was warm. His words were all hypocritical but he wants to keep our memories here and give me a second chance. [That doesn't explain why his chest ached in the first place. But things had been so heavy he knows better than to figure that one out.] For everyone to give me a second chance. He should know better! We once were all murdering servants of Junko Enoshima, but humans like to blame others when everyone is equally guilty.
Not that they don't have good reasons for it! ...but, I still don't know what to do about him. He's so confusing and frustrating! He's changed and I'm only getting the full scope of it in pieces.
I can't stop thinking about that moment. No matter what I do and I can't understand that either.
He was warm. His words were all hypocritical but he wants to keep our memories here and give me a second chance. [That doesn't explain why his chest ached in the first place. But things had been so heavy he knows better than to figure that one out.] For everyone to give me a second chance. He should know better! We once were all murdering servants of Junko Enoshima, but humans like to blame others when everyone is equally guilty.
Not that they don't have good reasons for it! ...but, I still don't know what to do about him. He's so confusing and frustrating! He's changed and I'm only getting the full scope of it in pieces.
I can't stop thinking about that moment. No matter what I do and I can't understand that either.
[If a sight like that is surprising, Nagito doesn't show it on his face. He steps out of the shadows near the doors to the library and hops off the side of the stairs.] Follow me, I know a good spot to go that will keep us out of this chill. How far along with Dunamis are you?
[He calls on Dunamis to clear a path through the snow. All the supplies he'd gathered will be waiting for him at the spot he'd picked. The spot turns out to be a small culdesac deeper in the otherworlder housing area. He pads over to the pack tucked between two houses and produces a bottle of water and a stone. Just in case he has a first aid kit but he doubts it will be needed.] Are you familiar with how easily water turns from one state into another?
[He calls on Dunamis to clear a path through the snow. All the supplies he'd gathered will be waiting for him at the spot he'd picked. The spot turns out to be a small culdesac deeper in the otherworlder housing area. He pads over to the pack tucked between two houses and produces a bottle of water and a stone. Just in case he has a first aid kit but he doubts it will be needed.] Are you familiar with how easily water turns from one state into another?
Not very well, I'm afraid. Every time I try to make something small like flowers I end up making bunches of carrots instead.
[How sad. At this rate, she will never achieve her Dunami dream of making trees with cute dogs growing out of them. :(
Anyway, she follows him to the spot.]
You mean like into ice or gas?
[How sad. At this rate, she will never achieve her Dunami dream of making trees with cute dogs growing out of them. :(
Anyway, she follows him to the spot.]
You mean like into ice or gas?
I know I'm not exactly the smartest, but Junko's...off. I talked to her a couple of times and she switched personalities like ten thousand times. It's really disturbing.
And even if Hinata means well, he should learn to ask his questions without offending anyone. He seems mostly concerned about you and how you managed to change, not that I can answer that very well, but I'll admit that our conversation focused a lot more on Junko though. He tried to warn me about her too and I'm grateful for that.
[He frowns as he listens to what Nagito says about the girl in question. But one part grabs his attention.]
What do you mean she killed her sister?
And even if Hinata means well, he should learn to ask his questions without offending anyone. He seems mostly concerned about you and how you managed to change, not that I can answer that very well, but I'll admit that our conversation focused a lot more on Junko though. He tried to warn me about her too and I'm grateful for that.
[He frowns as he listens to what Nagito says about the girl in question. But one part grabs his attention.]
What do you mean she killed her sister?
[...He hugged him, huh.]
He sounds like an idiot.
[Let's get that out of the way, first and foremost.]
But he sounds like an idiot that cares about you. Or wants to care about you.
[And that's not necessarily a bad thing.]
...Would it be easier for you to try to be his friend? Is that something you'd want?
[How does that feel to him? He needs an idea of his reaction, at least.]
He sounds like an idiot.
[Let's get that out of the way, first and foremost.]
But he sounds like an idiot that cares about you. Or wants to care about you.
[And that's not necessarily a bad thing.]
...Would it be easier for you to try to be his friend? Is that something you'd want?
[How does that feel to him? He needs an idea of his reaction, at least.]
[He sits back at that, putting a hand to his forehead. Would Hinata even accept that? Considering what lies between them he's not so sure. But...what does he want?] The problem is I don't know what I want. I keep turning it around in my head and I don't understand it.
I'm not sure we could be friends. I keep telling him that we can't just start over. It's pretty impossible to do that when he keeps grinding what I did in my face. Not that I don't deserve it.
[Yes, Hinata is a moron. He can totally agree.] Could we move on from this point? I...maybe. I just don't know.
I'm not sure we could be friends. I keep telling him that we can't just start over. It's pretty impossible to do that when he keeps grinding what I did in my face. Not that I don't deserve it.
[Yes, Hinata is a moron. He can totally agree.] Could we move on from this point? I...maybe. I just don't know.
Edited 2016-02-03 05:52 (UTC)
...Why not do that? It's already happened, right? It's over. So why not move forward instead of dragging around the past?
[It sounds a hell of a lot less frustrating than the emotional tug of war they're playing right now.]
He might need a reminder to stop grinding the past in your face like a total jerk, but maybe you can work something out.
[It sounds a hell of a lot less frustrating than the emotional tug of war they're playing right now.]
He might need a reminder to stop grinding the past in your face like a total jerk, but maybe you can work something out.
Silver, the one who got executed for my murder was the girl he was crushing on. [Does he sound slightly bitter? Oh no. Totally not. There's nothing there.]
He keeps the past with him so he won't forget what everyone gave their lives for. [Which...actually sounds really like a tragedy in the making. He keeps thinking Hinata is the most vulnerable to Junko. He pauses.]
...but you're right. The past is the past. Hanging on to it, does little good. You can remember and move on. Mmm, but all this happened very recently for him. If I started shoving what he did in his face, he'd react just as bad. So maybe I need to make that clear.
He keeps the past with him so he won't forget what everyone gave their lives for. [Which...actually sounds really like a tragedy in the making. He keeps thinking Hinata is the most vulnerable to Junko. He pauses.]
...but you're right. The past is the past. Hanging on to it, does little good. You can remember and move on. Mmm, but all this happened very recently for him. If I started shoving what he did in his face, he'd react just as bad. So maybe I need to make that clear.
[...Yikes. That does make things kind of difficult, doesn't it.]
How'd you feel about this girl, anyway? Didn't you want to get someone out?
[Was his luck wrong?]
How'd you feel about this girl, anyway? Didn't you want to get someone out?
[Was his luck wrong?]
During a trial if you couldn't prove who killed the victim, everyone was executed except the 'blackened'. [Does that say something nasty? You can bet it does. He did say he tried to kill them all.]
Nanami Chiaki...she was very kind. Very gentle. Ah, I didn't mind being around her at all. In hindsight it makes sense she was the traitor. The rest of us have something...off about us. She never did. Even during the worst of it all she was very calm and collected.
Nanami Chiaki...she was very kind. Very gentle. Ah, I didn't mind being around her at all. In hindsight it makes sense she was the traitor. The rest of us have something...off about us. She never did. Even during the worst of it all she was very calm and collected.
Yes! But you'll only be focusing on turning it to ice or back to liquid today. The stone might be used today. It might not!
[He motions for her to set the bowl down in the cleared area. She'd tried to make flowers? He thinks about that as he circles the spot in a slow methodical manner.]
I think you're approaching Dunamis from the wrong perspective. Flowers are made up of many things, and essentially a form of life. You were a warrior in Thras Challenge.
Maybe start with manipulating the elements?
[He motions for her to set the bowl down in the cleared area. She'd tried to make flowers? He thinks about that as he circles the spot in a slow methodical manner.]
I think you're approaching Dunamis from the wrong perspective. Flowers are made up of many things, and essentially a form of life. You were a warrior in Thras Challenge.
Maybe start with manipulating the elements?
Junko Enoshima executed her. I saw the memory myself when the tree appeared but from what I remember, the 'games' where she forced classes to kill each other. Her sister was a victim. The first, in fact.
It might be best to explain her mindset as I've come to understand it from personal interaction. Enoshima seeks despair. But not the normal kind of day to day depression. She also has the full range of emotions anyone else has. Thinking like this, how would you go about great personal despair?
[There's a really simple, very nasty answer. Destroy all friends and family. By breaking those people, the despair would be enormous. Killing them, even worse.]
Hinata and I both were once her victims. Here she values us because of it. And as I said, he means well. And I won't lie to you I did things I have to atone for. It's a very complicated situation but I do trust no matter what Hinata will do what is right. And Ultimate Despair, Junko Enoshima is at this moment likely engineering ways to make herself feel even greater despair.
In her usual manner likely building connections among like minded people. Or exploiting others weaknesses. We all have darkness, or flaws, or weaknesses. Those are her real weapons.
It might be best to explain her mindset as I've come to understand it from personal interaction. Enoshima seeks despair. But not the normal kind of day to day depression. She also has the full range of emotions anyone else has. Thinking like this, how would you go about great personal despair?
[There's a really simple, very nasty answer. Destroy all friends and family. By breaking those people, the despair would be enormous. Killing them, even worse.]
Hinata and I both were once her victims. Here she values us because of it. And as I said, he means well. And I won't lie to you I did things I have to atone for. It's a very complicated situation but I do trust no matter what Hinata will do what is right. And Ultimate Despair, Junko Enoshima is at this moment likely engineering ways to make herself feel even greater despair.
In her usual manner likely building connections among like minded people. Or exploiting others weaknesses. We all have darkness, or flaws, or weaknesses. Those are her real weapons.
Oh? I guess I might be. It's really different from using angel magic, that's for sure.
But you're right. I should start with that.
[And she places the bowl where he tells her.]
This is going to be fun!
[Except there will probably be a lot of screw-ups too. Because she's a klutz.]
But you're right. I should start with that.
[And she places the bowl where he tells her.]
This is going to be fun!
[Except there will probably be a lot of screw-ups too. Because she's a klutz.]
Angel magic? How does it work? [He's curious about what perceptions he has to work with. Everyone has a view of the world and he had always been good at getting a glimpse of the worlds others keep in their heads. It's what made him so good at manipulating others to follow the strings of his plans.
He hums to himself and stuffs the rock into his pocket. In one smooth movement he sits on the other side of the bowl as light rises from him like smoke from a fire. Faint scales are visible in the pale gold streaming up and a faint barely discernable shape. He pulls the power into himself to temporarily fix his breathing.] The easiest thing to do with Dunamis is work within what we know. I had no frame to work with save What Thras showed me. You need to combine the two - perception and understanding of your own emotions. With me so far?
He hums to himself and stuffs the rock into his pocket. In one smooth movement he sits on the other side of the bowl as light rises from him like smoke from a fire. Faint scales are visible in the pale gold streaming up and a faint barely discernable shape. He pulls the power into himself to temporarily fix his breathing.] The easiest thing to do with Dunamis is work within what we know. I had no frame to work with save What Thras showed me. You need to combine the two - perception and understanding of your own emotions. With me so far?
No one's perfect. I've done things that I'm not proud of. Things that cost people their lives, their homes...By trying to help a friend, we accidentally caused our village to be burned by some really bad people called Desians. But I've always tried to make it up to those that I've wronged by doing the best that I possibly could.
It sounds like your situation is different but I'm not going to hold any of what you did against you, since it seems like you want to make up for it. Hinata seems okay and he might mean well, but he's burning bridges before he's even got a food in the door and causing unnecessary trouble.
Especially since Junko's probably as dangerous as you say she is. [Because he does trust Nagito's judgment about this. It's a gut feeling. Something that Genis would probably say was his animal instincts kicking in. It's what's alerted him to not get too close to Junko in the first place.]
I know someone like that. He even went so far as to pose as a kid around my best friend's age to try and dupe him into betraying us, all of us. He was my friend, or so I thought. But he's the reason my world is so messed up. He's the reason Colette is suffering.
It sounds like your situation is different but I'm not going to hold any of what you did against you, since it seems like you want to make up for it. Hinata seems okay and he might mean well, but he's burning bridges before he's even got a food in the door and causing unnecessary trouble.
Especially since Junko's probably as dangerous as you say she is. [Because he does trust Nagito's judgment about this. It's a gut feeling. Something that Genis would probably say was his animal instincts kicking in. It's what's alerted him to not get too close to Junko in the first place.]
I know someone like that. He even went so far as to pose as a kid around my best friend's age to try and dupe him into betraying us, all of us. He was my friend, or so I thought. But he's the reason my world is so messed up. He's the reason Colette is suffering.
Well....normal humans can't learn it. You have to go through the angel transformation first.[And those small dark clouds coming over her suggest this is probably not a good thing. But she smiles and tries to concentrate on the topic at hand by watching and concentrating on what Nagito is doing.
And then she opens her mouth but not because of the light.]
Y-your voice...
[Sorry Nagito. She's heard the other part of the conversation. It's just that this is a bit of a shock right now. She's always thought you didn't sound well but didn't want to push.]
And then she opens her mouth but not because of the light.]
Y-your voice...
[Sorry Nagito. She's heard the other part of the conversation. It's just that this is a bit of a shock right now. She's always thought you didn't sound well but didn't want to push.]
...I have full confidence that this is a very difficult situation for Hinata. [He speaks slowly. Komaeda had dealt with Enoshima for months. He hates her like no one else will but, his feelings about Hinata are so mixed up he still doesn't know which way to fall. All he knows is he wants to keep talking to him. He stares at the coffee on his side of the table when it's placed in front of him.]
I'm here, and we have a history that is full of more bad than good. Mm, and we haven't forgiven each other for that. But I've changed and that's more than a little upsetting to him. He's not a rigid individual, but in terms of reactions - he's extremely predictable.
[He knew from the moment he saw him that he'd be confused and possibly make trouble for him. Komaeda picks up his coffee and takes a swallow of the contents. Bitter but he prefers that taste over anything sugary.]
Because he reacts like any normal person would. ...as strange as it sounds, his real character shows when he stops reacting and starts doing. [As irritated as he is with him. He still...]
He's a foolish person, but... [He doesn't notice the wistful fondness that enters his voice.] maybe that's what makes him so interesting.
I'm here, and we have a history that is full of more bad than good. Mm, and we haven't forgiven each other for that. But I've changed and that's more than a little upsetting to him. He's not a rigid individual, but in terms of reactions - he's extremely predictable.
[He knew from the moment he saw him that he'd be confused and possibly make trouble for him. Komaeda picks up his coffee and takes a swallow of the contents. Bitter but he prefers that taste over anything sugary.]
Because he reacts like any normal person would. ...as strange as it sounds, his real character shows when he stops reacting and starts doing. [As irritated as he is with him. He still...]
He's a foolish person, but... [He doesn't notice the wistful fondness that enters his voice.] maybe that's what makes him so interesting.
Edited 2016-02-07 21:08 (UTC)
[Ah. Colette doesn't know.
Nagito doesn't reply as first, and Raijin his Spyrite materializes in his lap. He runs his fingers through the spirit's soft fur while he considers how to explain it. He could lie, but anyone else could correct that. More importantly, Colette is a friend.
He sighs heavily and opts for the truth.]
Just as your transformation is killing you. So is my luck killing me.
[Dark shadows flicker around him, forming thick chains to wrap around his throat and waist. He still smiles at her, but it doesn't quite reach his eyes.]
I understand what it is like to start losing yourself.
Nagito doesn't reply as first, and Raijin his Spyrite materializes in his lap. He runs his fingers through the spirit's soft fur while he considers how to explain it. He could lie, but anyone else could correct that. More importantly, Colette is a friend.
He sighs heavily and opts for the truth.]
Just as your transformation is killing you. So is my luck killing me.
[Dark shadows flicker around him, forming thick chains to wrap around his throat and waist. He still smiles at her, but it doesn't quite reach his eyes.]
I understand what it is like to start losing yourself.
Hm. Well, I hope that you two can learn to get along better. I'm sure you will if that's what you both want.
[Lloyd, ever the connoisseur of food after traveling with Regal for so long, has ordered a bowl of the paella. Because, haha, it tastes awesome and is free of those horrid tomatoes! ]
If there's anything I can do to help let me know.
[After his offer of help, Lloyd stares at his food before eating a bit. But, he's got a lot on his mind still.]
I wanna talk to you about Colette too. I don't really know what she was doing before I got here. Junko talked about things that happened before I arrived, but Colette didn't. That usually means she either got hurt or something scared her so bad she won't talk about it. She's a crap liar, but she avoids topics with the best of them if she thinks she can get away with it.
I know she doesn't mean it in a bad way, but she sorta relies on the fact that I don't know as much as she does to get out of topics that are a little uncomfortable.
[Lloyd, ever the connoisseur of food after traveling with Regal for so long, has ordered a bowl of the paella. Because, haha, it tastes awesome and is free of those horrid tomatoes! ]
If there's anything I can do to help let me know.
[After his offer of help, Lloyd stares at his food before eating a bit. But, he's got a lot on his mind still.]
I wanna talk to you about Colette too. I don't really know what she was doing before I got here. Junko talked about things that happened before I arrived, but Colette didn't. That usually means she either got hurt or something scared her so bad she won't talk about it. She's a crap liar, but she avoids topics with the best of them if she thinks she can get away with it.
I know she doesn't mean it in a bad way, but she sorta relies on the fact that I don't know as much as she does to get out of topics that are a little uncomfortable.
Well, you need to refresh my memory when you showed up. It's been a bit hectic lately! [Should he admit to why Colette might not be talking? Does he know? He has a few guesses but until he can pinpoint the timeframe, it's difficult to say.
...but Lloyd is out to help her and extended an offer of help to him too. About Hinata of all people but still. Komaeda eats slowly, savoring his toasted tomato, basil, and mozzarella panini. Foreign foods can be a bit weird but From The Hearth makes such good cuisine he isn't afraid to explore the menu.]
Especially with the anti-Arehtei riots earlier and their apparent attempts to do them harm.
...but Lloyd is out to help her and extended an offer of help to him too. About Hinata of all people but still. Komaeda eats slowly, savoring his toasted tomato, basil, and mozzarella panini. Foreign foods can be a bit weird but From The Hearth makes such good cuisine he isn't afraid to explore the menu.]
Especially with the anti-Arehtei riots earlier and their apparent attempts to do them harm.
The what? [That has Lloyd's fork hitting his plate with a bit of a clatter with a look of horror mixed with confusion.] Are you joking? Is it even possible to hurt them in ways besides what Junko did to Peromei?
[He is totally earnest in his question. He didn't hear about any riots! He was busy dealing with Junko, actually.]
I got here about the time when Thras decided to kidnap people for fun and games. Colette was one of them and Kor and I went to go get her back.
[He is totally earnest in his question. He didn't hear about any riots! He was busy dealing with Junko, actually.]
I got here about the time when Thras decided to kidnap people for fun and games. Colette was one of them and Kor and I went to go get her back.
Actually, Thras didn't tell us that he was using his 'game' as a move to establish us as a neutral party. Which, considering the circumstances was wise. But I couldn't tell you what his aims are or what really motivates him. I intended to get a history lesson from him and he distracted me with disturbing information.
[So he hadn't known about it. Komaeda sets his sandwich down on his plate and shakes his head. Despite his companion's horror, he is just serious and calm. It's all things he's heard and dealt with before. But, at the same time it's the plans weaving their way through his mind like delicate webs.]
The situation happened while we were in Shaarnath. Likely caused by the reveal of the city. I believe it's public knowledge what the world below looks like. To find an ancient enemy survived...not being the last didn't matter to them in the face of old hate.
While many understand the Arehtei are not beings of destruction, you will find those who will think it anyway. It's human nature. Whether these thoughts are brought about by desire for power, sorrow, rage, hate, or even fear. Or perhaps even a desire to shatter the chains of something vast over their heads...
[He stares at his own hands, seeing the past Peromei had showed him in his mind's eyes. The terrible destruction played out again in the thunder of hooves and shouts of the soldiers.] Some will fall to the 'darkness in the hearts of man'. Just as they did in their history before the Calamity or 'Emotional Disturbance' as Thras called it.
Only Daimonia and Thras possibly remember what happened to cause this world to fall. Whether they'll tell us or not. Perhaps some wreckage of civilization survived. But I don't need my luck to say these events in motion right now are reflections of that time.
[So he hadn't known about it. Komaeda sets his sandwich down on his plate and shakes his head. Despite his companion's horror, he is just serious and calm. It's all things he's heard and dealt with before. But, at the same time it's the plans weaving their way through his mind like delicate webs.]
The situation happened while we were in Shaarnath. Likely caused by the reveal of the city. I believe it's public knowledge what the world below looks like. To find an ancient enemy survived...not being the last didn't matter to them in the face of old hate.
While many understand the Arehtei are not beings of destruction, you will find those who will think it anyway. It's human nature. Whether these thoughts are brought about by desire for power, sorrow, rage, hate, or even fear. Or perhaps even a desire to shatter the chains of something vast over their heads...
[He stares at his own hands, seeing the past Peromei had showed him in his mind's eyes. The terrible destruction played out again in the thunder of hooves and shouts of the soldiers.] Some will fall to the 'darkness in the hearts of man'. Just as they did in their history before the Calamity or 'Emotional Disturbance' as Thras called it.
Only Daimonia and Thras possibly remember what happened to cause this world to fall. Whether they'll tell us or not. Perhaps some wreckage of civilization survived. But I don't need my luck to say these events in motion right now are reflections of that time.
Edited 2016-02-08 09:02 (UTC)
Yeah, I tried to figure out what was going on in Shaarnath and didn't get very far. But that's where I met her and by the time we were done talking, I was pretty confused. I didn't hear anything about riots while I was there.
[Which shouldn't really surprise anyone. If he'd been in Verens, that would've been a different story. He listens intently to what Nagito says, not really getting everything but understanding enough to be disgusted.]
So, you're telling me that they fought against the Arehtei before and when Shaarnath appeared they just assumed something bad and attacked?
[Which shouldn't really surprise anyone. If he'd been in Verens, that would've been a different story. He listens intently to what Nagito says, not really getting everything but understanding enough to be disgusted.]
So, you're telling me that they fought against the Arehtei before and when Shaarnath appeared they just assumed something bad and attacked?
[Colette closed her mouth and glanced at the ground, wringing her hands.
So that was what Nagito had meant when he said that he said that his experiences helped him understand what she was going through. And it made sense, considering that he did not look like the state of perfect health. ]
I see......I'm so sorry, Nagito.
[As to how his luck was killing him exactly, Colette wasn't too sure besides what she could tell from his appearance and change of voice. But what a horrible thing to go through, if his luck has caused this. And going through the stress of trying to cure her too probably didn't help. In Colette's mind, that is.]
So that was what Nagito had meant when he said that he said that his experiences helped him understand what she was going through. And it made sense, considering that he did not look like the state of perfect health. ]
I see......I'm so sorry, Nagito.
[As to how his luck was killing him exactly, Colette wasn't too sure besides what she could tell from his appearance and change of voice. But what a horrible thing to go through, if his luck has caused this. And going through the stress of trying to cure her too probably didn't help. In Colette's mind, that is.]
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