[The air shifts so fast that only the lingering warmth in his chest is a hint that it existed at all. Komaeda sobers, and forces his hands to rest on either side of him. Sometimes he has problems where it feels like only physical pain could fix the fractures in his mind. It's become common place these days that someone will grab his hands, or his wrists to prevent it. But that doesn't mean he can't stop himself...most of the time.]
...
[He starts to speak and falls silent. There's no Hinata to hug him and speak in soft tones, but the memory is enough that he doesn't feel the familiar sense of shame that accompanies thinking about the action.]
In more times of my life than I can recall on hand. [His fingers twitch. He digs them into the bark but not hard enough to cause pain.]
Cw: self harm mentions
...
[He starts to speak and falls silent. There's no Hinata to hug him and speak in soft tones, but the memory is enough that he doesn't feel the familiar sense of shame that accompanies thinking about the action.]
In more times of my life than I can recall on hand. [His fingers twitch. He digs them into the bark but not hard enough to cause pain.]
What happened?