At least with friends you can distance yourself. It's easier to do that, to me, than it is with a lover. Because with a lover, you're mostly revealing most of yourself to them. And to have the risk of them disappearing and forgetting about you... I don't think I could do that.
[ Not a second time. She already has the experience. ]
Like there's the possiblity that they might come back and have no memories of that time and you'd have to start over from the beginning.
I have a problem trusting people. I think that's the primary reason why I'm in Piphron. I've always had friends, but I never kept them close to my chest. I just had them so I wouldn't lose face, I guess. So that I could be seen as 'normal', or something like that.
I already know that the mutual exchange of love can change someone. Especially if it's mutual.
[ Even through the text, there's a slight fondness to it; it's almost melancholic. ]
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[ Not a second time. She already has the experience. ]
Like there's the possiblity that they might come back and have no memories of that time and you'd have to start over from the beginning.
I have a problem trusting people. I think that's the primary reason why I'm in Piphron. I've always had friends, but I never kept them close to my chest. I just had them so I wouldn't lose face, I guess. So that I could be seen as 'normal', or something like that.
I already know that the mutual exchange of love can change someone. Especially if it's mutual.
[ Even through the text, there's a slight fondness to it; it's almost melancholic. ]
It's just a scary thought.