Got it on! Seeing you guys overcome my programming and coming together like that is absolutely despair inducing for me. So despair inducing that I don't really need to add to it. Not like that anyways.

[Okay, yes, she sure as hell could add to it. Needing to and wanting to are two very different things of course, but hey, she's selfish. And the misery of losing and watching everybody move on is pretty great if you ask her.]