Komaeda Nagito (![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
eyeswideopen) wrote2015-10-14 07:21 pm
eyeswideopen) wrote2015-10-14 07:21 pmEntry tags:
Messenger Box
If you need to get a hold of Komaeda, here's where you do it.
Messenger birds, action, what have you.
eyeswideopen) wrote2015-10-14 07:21 pm
10/9 action
We're constantly releasing emotional energy. Without our conscious will converting and releasing it as something harmless, it manifests in other ways!
As you well know.
[The stones are smooth as he picks up one and holds it over the bowl.] Back in Shaarnath, the instructors taught us to look for the patterns in our emotional energy. Look for that...and thank you for trusting me. I'm sorry I didn't tell you about Nanami.
...Tell me how you're feeling. Ah, and what effects you've seen manifest around you and for what.
10/9 action
[Naegi's eyes are downcast, but he isn't paying attention to the water very closely, so he doesn't notice how it momentarily twists into something like a knot before evening out. This is probably a good transition point, though.]
As for how I'm feeling... Sad and upset. [The water stirs again, just gentle ripples at first.] Guilty, I suppose, for making you talk about such difficult things. Longing and grief, for the friends I lost during the Mutual Killing Game. [As Naegi speaks, the water is no longer just simple ripples, but it swirls as if someone is stirring it with a spoon, getting stronger and more noticeable as Naegi continues to talk.] Also, this might sound odd, but... I feel relieved. [At this point, the water swiftly calms down.] Relieved that I'm talking with you and trust you. Relieved that Enoshima-san didn't break things as badly as I had feared.
In terms of emotional effects... There's still some things I don't recognize as easily, but I think I have a fairly good idea of which emotions cause what things. Happiness, hope, and trust... The air will shine bright around me if I feel any of them, and sometimes if my hope is very strong, plants will grow nearby. Fear, sadness, or despair seems to be the opposite, because the air will become dark and shadowed around me instead if I feel any of those. And then anger causes fire, like that time with Enoshima-san. I think there may be one other emotion that causes that, like intense panic, but I can't be completely sure.
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The next step is to look at how the energy is projected from you. You are the source of the flame, the light, the growth, and death. Despite how they manifest that energy streams from your body in patterns. Watch the water.
[He waits for the count of two and let go of every restraint, every chain he imposes on himself. Naegi extended his trust, he would show him how deep the darkness goes. He grabs for the past and focuses on how it felt to be required to seek only despair. Chains rattle in the shadows, manifesting as his body becomes thinner, his hair wilder, and eyes dark with madness. Straight sharp lines cut across the water like swords.
He holds onto that boundless despair and turns it the other way. Gold light spills out like the first rays of the dawn, forming glimmering scales and bright dragons of light. The water swirls as it forms a cyclone that rises up out of the bowl. If his despair had been like a blade carving up targets, his hope is a hurricane. Slowly the light draws back as he puts the iron bars of control back into place. The water returns to the bowl. Komaeda drops his hands to the wood.] Focus on memories associated with the emotion you choose and watch how the water responds.
The more you practice the more you can consciously work that bit of energy and learn how it flows from you.
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...I'll try it, though.
[He almost goes directly to a memory closesly associated with his grief, but Naegi is still nervous about what kind of result that's going to yield, so he opts to choose something he knows better first. Anger is an emotion he's learned to control a lot more since his arrival, so he decides to focus on a memory associated with it.
...Perhaps that's not the best choice.
Naegi thinks of seeing Enoshima for the first time when he arrived and how much she had riled him. It melds into what he'd experienced a short while ago with her, how raw it had felt to have her call into question everyone he's come to care about.
It's a mistake, probably, because Naegi doesn't take into account how much it's going to effect him - or how the water instantly begins to boil, rolling like a kettle left on just a little too long. Naegi gasps and jerks back, trying to calm down.]
S-sorry! I'm sorry, I didn't think...