[He buries his face in his hands. Oh super he made Hinata worry. This is so stupid how much he cares. He had known where things were going but he'd dared to hope.
Like an idiot.
There's a pause again and he forces it all back down inside. Shoving it and layering his thoughts over them. He won't do this again. Cling to hopes and wrap them tightly about his person.
It only takes looking back to see where that got him. His voice is frightenly even when he's done with it. Yes, there had been a glimpse behind the mask he's kept up for three months. But no more.]
I understand your reasoning, Hinata. It's the same reason I'm conducting my investigation into Hope's Peak through my own memories. I said I'd go.
[In hindsight, hiding his emotions will only make Hinata worry more. It's all he knows how to do in this sort of situation.] I'll be fine eventually, Hinata.
Don't worry about it so much.
[That won't help. He knows it won't but. He sighs heavily. Hinata won't bring it up. So he won't either.
Really.
He'll be fine. Eventually.] It's best for you to focus on, [There's a pause.] Nanami and explaining to her more about this world.
Telling me not to worry is only going to make me worry more, Komaeda.
[ Please. ] I already planned on teaching her things to begin with. She doesn't know about Tanabata, so... do you want to celebrate with us? I was thinking of hanging tanzaku with everyone -- I don't think Sonia's ever celebrated either, so it might be a good idea.
[It's on his mind to say no. He knows what that holiday is about and it's a lot like twisting the knife. But if he doesn't...
He had said he'd be there for his friends overall too.
Siggggh.]
Sonia likely knows what it's about but you're right, she likely hasn't celebrated it. [And it would be nice to just hang out with everyone. Instead of terrible information from the Arehtei then...well. He scrubs at his face.]
I'll come. [He has completely dodged the first thing Hinata said. He won't lie to him. But if he can choose not to answer certain things...he won't.]
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Like an idiot.
There's a pause again and he forces it all back down inside. Shoving it and layering his thoughts over them. He won't do this again. Cling to hopes and wrap them tightly about his person.
It only takes looking back to see where that got him. His voice is frightenly even when he's done with it. Yes, there had been a glimpse behind the mask he's kept up for three months. But no more.]
I understand your reasoning, Hinata. It's the same reason I'm conducting my investigation into Hope's Peak through my own memories. I said I'd go.
We'll see what comes of it.
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[ His voice stops slightly, swallowing hard. There's something wrong with Komaeda and his worry just seems to spike instead of calming down. ]
Don't push yourself.
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Don't worry about it so much.
[That won't help. He knows it won't but. He sighs heavily. Hinata won't bring it up. So he won't either.
Really.
He'll be fine. Eventually.] It's best for you to focus on, [There's a pause.] Nanami and explaining to her more about this world.
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[ Please. ] I already planned on teaching her things to begin with. She doesn't know about Tanabata, so... do you want to celebrate with us? I was thinking of hanging tanzaku with everyone -- I don't think Sonia's ever celebrated either, so it might be a good idea.
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He had said he'd be there for his friends overall too.
Siggggh.]
Sonia likely knows what it's about but you're right, she likely hasn't celebrated it. [And it would be nice to just hang out with everyone. Instead of terrible information from the Arehtei then...well. He scrubs at his face.]
I'll come. [He has completely dodged the first thing Hinata said. He won't lie to him. But if he can choose not to answer certain things...he won't.]
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I'm always glad to spend time with everyone. [Kill him now.]