Messenger Box

[eyeswideopen]

If you need to get a hold of Komaeda, here's where you do it.

Messenger birds, action, what have you.

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[dereban]

I don't suppose you're going to tell me what that secret was, are you? You don't have to tell me if you don't want to. But I'd understand why he would be upset.

[eyeswideopen]

As do I these days. [He falls quiet. He could tell her very easily what that secret was but.] It's a secret that both is and isn't just mine. If you truly want to know, my public record as an Arehtei Representative has all of it.

I will warn you. You're not going to like any bit of it. Even if things...came to light about why. I still am as guilty of it all as I ever was. I could of course, tell you right now. But then we'd truly be distracted from your questions you've been trying to answer for yourself. Right?

[dereban]

I'd much rather hear it from the person themselves rather than snooping behind their back, regardless if it's public information or otherwise. Especially if it's someone who's a friend.

I'm not a good person either. While I may not have done something as dramatically bad as killing, it's not like I'm perfect, either. But that's beside the main point so I'll... get back on topic.

What would you think if someone lost their memories? Not of this place. Not of the events that happened. Just you, alone. More importantly... if they were someone you loved. You'd try to get their memories back, right?

What if that was impossible? Would you still try, regardless? To make them have feelings for you, and vice versa. Simply for the experience, the new memories, I guess. Don't tell anyone I said this, but I have that experience -- one of having my boyfriend forget me entirely. It's kind of why I'm scared to try again. Like... should I even bother to love someone?

[eyeswideopen]

[He sits back in his seat giving her the mental image while his thoughts whirl in circles. A long narrow sword rests in two clamps on the work bench. The hilt is wrapped in a cage of interwoven metal threads like some spider web to guard the wrist. The blade itself is made for slashing and carving. The kind of sword you expect to cut things to pieces. He trails his fingers along it as faint red light whispers from the sword.]

I wouldn't try to make them love me again. Don't get me wrong, I would want that more than anything! But...I would be scared to try pushing for what I had. Hajime and I revolved around each other and had specific situations that led to where we are. I...

I would still stay by their side and love that person. More than anything. But I don't know what else would come if it and I would never regret the love I had. Even if they fell in love with..with someone else.

[He drops his head, snow and dark chains appearing and disappearing as his thoughts sway between grief and despair.] For it was lucky and nice, to ever be loved at all.

[dereban]

[ Actually, in this case she's going to switch and show the mental image, smiling wistfully. She thinks that it would probably be more reassuring that way. ]

You're really kind. To even think that. If you can think that way I'm sure that in the worst case scenario... I'd think there are plenty of people who would be able to fall in love with you and accept you as you are. Anyway, do you think I should try dating? If the person I asked says 'yes'.

[eyeswideopen]

[He blinks. That was clearly not what he had expected to hear. Or see. His own smile the wistful thing that it has been eases a bit.]

If they say yes, is it really fair to both of you not to give it a chance? Take the risk, Inaba.

Or you're absolutely regret it, won't you.

[dereban]

I don't know if I'll regret it or not. [ Her voice is like falling snow, almost static. ]

I guess that's why I should try... probably.

[eyeswideopen]

If you just sit in despair. You'll never know what hope might be ahead of you. No matter how it goes, you can always come here.

I'll be awake. [He would wake up to help a friend.]